Duchess on Nostr: Hey Matt, I don’t come across many people that give such comprehensive and genuine ...
Hey Matt,
I don’t come across many people that give such comprehensive and genuine responses, in fact a few guys here accused me of being a bit because I often times give long responses and apparently because of lists I posted (I love making lists 😂 it’s my weird thing). Your thoughts and feelings resonate deeply, and I appreciate the time and effort you placed in this conversation.
lol yeah the block feature does work well 😂
It's truly heartening to hear that our discussions can possibly be beneficial in taking you out of your own rut and helping you change your perspective. Conversations with strangers, free from preconceived notions and biases, can for sure lead to fresh insights. Everyone needs an external perspective from time to time. To be honest I think we all have moments when we're oblivious to our own feelings or actions; the key is to keep an open mind and be receptive to growth.
🥹 Thanks for those kind words 💕
It speaks volumes of your character that you’re willing to reconsider and reflect upon your statements when someone points something out. Mutual growth and understanding are fundamental to meaningful conversations.
Your mention of the "I want to stay friends because I don't want to risk things getting weird" sentiment is, unfortunately, I think a familiar one for many. Relationships and their dynamics can be intricate, but they also offer invaluable lessons. Thankfully I’ve also never experienced that situation myself. 🙏
Regarding being an "agendaless listener," you got me! 😊
Regarding being an "agendaless listener," you caught me there! 😊 My primary goal is always to support and help those I communicate with. I suppose it can come across as an "agenda," however it's genuinely rooted in care and understanding. Nevertheless if that's my "agenda," then I proudly wear that badge.
Thanks for recognizing the intention behind my listening.
Your reflections and insights are deeply profound and resonate with an authenticity that is touching, trust me most women wish their husbands had this skill. The journey you've been on, including the challenges you've faced, shines a light on your resilience and introspection that I think speaking out loud (texting) for sure helps in "healing” and in growing/ evolving, even if you don’t realize it. Your thoughts about relationships, personal growth, and self-worth are relatable to many, even if the details are unique to you. So it’s not like you have some crazy thoughts that no one can relate to and make you too difficult to date. You are just placing this idea on yourself for no reason (that I can see at least).
This 👇 was sweet 🫂 thanks 💕
“I would have guessed you to be comfortable in nearly any setting. You are very self-assured but not arrogant. You likely know your limitations and your boundaries. You are well read and like to laugh. You are certainly very good company in any setting.”
About talking leading to action, yeah time will tell, it always does. But even if you don’t take action I suppose it’s also fine, the main thing is that you have the free will to do whatever you want with yourself, your life, your thoughts, your plans, and your future. Regardless of what you change or don’t change I’ll still be your Nostr friend 💝 however I do wish for people to just feel peace because when people have peace inside, it’s much easier for them to create peace around them and if everyone has peace around them it’s just more pleasant to be on this planet with other humans.
Ugh I’m sorry that joining the army made everything worse, but good to know you can say that at least aside from the lack of care and time to heal physically, you didn't have the worst time of it. It’s a painful thought for me to imagine how bad things soldiers have experienced, especially on tour. Were you also deployed? Where were you stationed? - if you don’t want to answer that’s also okay.
I’m assuming you are American and you joined the American Army? If so you can’t beat yourself up too much about thinking the Army would be a good idea, because from what I understand there is a lot of military “propaganda” (if you will) about how great the Army is and how many good jobs there are and what good things you will do for your country. So I think it’s normal for Americans to assume the Army is a good choice for a life path.
Speaking of the military, Have you seen Guy Ritchie's new movie ‘The Covenant’?
About military disability, well I suppose it’s understandable that you don’t want to go to through the painful hoops they make you go through and I understand your point of not wanting to depend on a system that you feel already hurt you once and I think it’s great that you would rather work (since you are fortunate enough to be able to) than just take a check. But at least you know it’s there if you need something.
My journey has been very long and we would spend months here talking about it 🥵 but I am thinking to write a book, so I’ll save it for that and I want to remain anonymous for now on here and giving too many details of my life might give away who I am.
But I can mention one experience that brought me considerable pain, without revealing my identity. I always knew Bitcoin was the future, but then shit coins came around and I thought that maybe all of these digital currencies could collectively help us break away from the dollar and this corrupt evil system we are fixed to live in. Because of this exploration I lost A LOT of money, it was an extremely painful financial lesson. Ultimately, I chose to view it as tuition for my education in shitcoins. Now, I know to never touch them and it’s Bitcoin only for me 🙏 my aha moment of clarity was saifedean (npub1gdu…6nak) ‘s book ‘The Bitcoin Standard’.
I came out of my depression by meditating, reminding myself what others have done is not my fault and I can’t beat myself up for this, spending time in nature, spending time with family, spending time with girlfriends, deleting instagram, getting back in the gym, removing carbs and bad food from my life (this can mess up your gut and this messes with hormones and emotions), and I read ALOT, specifically bitcoin 📚 books!
Oh so you can cook? 👩🍳 well, that’s a great husband skill lol. My mom cooks AMAZING food all week long (unless we grill, that’s my dad’s space) and on the weekends my dad makes a bomb breakfast! And on holidays everyone cooks. Anyways it’s great that you can cook and that you enjoy what you cook, so yeah one step at a time, but food is a big part of begging healthy. Have you ever tried the carnivore diet?
Your comment about wanting to “live a life that's less full of regret than it is of more positive” well I think the best start is just to work on you from the inside out, books, healthy food, and movement to get blood flowing thought your body.
“50 is normal for a man to have a baby?” Well, I can’t say what is normal, I don’t really know what normal is, this idea of. Kemal has always been very hard for me unless I look at statistics. But I can say my friend that had a baby at 40, her husband was 52 🤷♀️ And yeah your friend that told you to stop worrying about what other people might say and just "go for it", is 100% correct!
Re: 27-30 year old woman who would want to go live in the woods with a stubborn old goat like you, well I just know that there are girls into this. I think at some point in my life I also might want that, but right now I love being close to an airport, I love knowing I can order food to my house at any time, I love knowing there are many cute parks to walk around, shows (I love ballet) to see every week… and I suppose my girlfriends are in the same mindset as me. But I know there are girls that are into the woods life and actually hate the city life, so I think what you want is for sure possible. Im also sure there is a woman that can teach you to love yourself, but I suppose this kind of woman will just walk into your life when you least expect it.
I understand the complexities of wanting companionship while grappling with past experiences and uncertainties about the future. I have to say, the self-awareness you possess, even in moments of doubt or self-criticism, is commendable.
I agree words are important. Your words about the importance of communication and valuing our human capacity to connect through words are on point. It's evident that you value authentic connection and deep, meaningful conversations.
Your desire for stillness and the steps you're taking towards positive change, like focusing on diet and seeking moments of peace, are praiseworthy. Every journey starts with small steps, maybe you're on the path and don’t even realize it.
I practice stillness when I meditate. 🧘♀️
We have created quite a long text here 😂 so I hope I responded to everything 👀.
Thank you for sharing your heart and thoughts so openly. I'm happy to listen, offer my insights, and give my support.
💕💕💕💕💕
I don’t come across many people that give such comprehensive and genuine responses, in fact a few guys here accused me of being a bit because I often times give long responses and apparently because of lists I posted (I love making lists 😂 it’s my weird thing). Your thoughts and feelings resonate deeply, and I appreciate the time and effort you placed in this conversation.
lol yeah the block feature does work well 😂
It's truly heartening to hear that our discussions can possibly be beneficial in taking you out of your own rut and helping you change your perspective. Conversations with strangers, free from preconceived notions and biases, can for sure lead to fresh insights. Everyone needs an external perspective from time to time. To be honest I think we all have moments when we're oblivious to our own feelings or actions; the key is to keep an open mind and be receptive to growth.
🥹 Thanks for those kind words 💕
It speaks volumes of your character that you’re willing to reconsider and reflect upon your statements when someone points something out. Mutual growth and understanding are fundamental to meaningful conversations.
Your mention of the "I want to stay friends because I don't want to risk things getting weird" sentiment is, unfortunately, I think a familiar one for many. Relationships and their dynamics can be intricate, but they also offer invaluable lessons. Thankfully I’ve also never experienced that situation myself. 🙏
Regarding being an "agendaless listener," you got me! 😊
Regarding being an "agendaless listener," you caught me there! 😊 My primary goal is always to support and help those I communicate with. I suppose it can come across as an "agenda," however it's genuinely rooted in care and understanding. Nevertheless if that's my "agenda," then I proudly wear that badge.
Thanks for recognizing the intention behind my listening.
Your reflections and insights are deeply profound and resonate with an authenticity that is touching, trust me most women wish their husbands had this skill. The journey you've been on, including the challenges you've faced, shines a light on your resilience and introspection that I think speaking out loud (texting) for sure helps in "healing” and in growing/ evolving, even if you don’t realize it. Your thoughts about relationships, personal growth, and self-worth are relatable to many, even if the details are unique to you. So it’s not like you have some crazy thoughts that no one can relate to and make you too difficult to date. You are just placing this idea on yourself for no reason (that I can see at least).
This 👇 was sweet 🫂 thanks 💕
“I would have guessed you to be comfortable in nearly any setting. You are very self-assured but not arrogant. You likely know your limitations and your boundaries. You are well read and like to laugh. You are certainly very good company in any setting.”
About talking leading to action, yeah time will tell, it always does. But even if you don’t take action I suppose it’s also fine, the main thing is that you have the free will to do whatever you want with yourself, your life, your thoughts, your plans, and your future. Regardless of what you change or don’t change I’ll still be your Nostr friend 💝 however I do wish for people to just feel peace because when people have peace inside, it’s much easier for them to create peace around them and if everyone has peace around them it’s just more pleasant to be on this planet with other humans.
Ugh I’m sorry that joining the army made everything worse, but good to know you can say that at least aside from the lack of care and time to heal physically, you didn't have the worst time of it. It’s a painful thought for me to imagine how bad things soldiers have experienced, especially on tour. Were you also deployed? Where were you stationed? - if you don’t want to answer that’s also okay.
I’m assuming you are American and you joined the American Army? If so you can’t beat yourself up too much about thinking the Army would be a good idea, because from what I understand there is a lot of military “propaganda” (if you will) about how great the Army is and how many good jobs there are and what good things you will do for your country. So I think it’s normal for Americans to assume the Army is a good choice for a life path.
Speaking of the military, Have you seen Guy Ritchie's new movie ‘The Covenant’?
About military disability, well I suppose it’s understandable that you don’t want to go to through the painful hoops they make you go through and I understand your point of not wanting to depend on a system that you feel already hurt you once and I think it’s great that you would rather work (since you are fortunate enough to be able to) than just take a check. But at least you know it’s there if you need something.
My journey has been very long and we would spend months here talking about it 🥵 but I am thinking to write a book, so I’ll save it for that and I want to remain anonymous for now on here and giving too many details of my life might give away who I am.
But I can mention one experience that brought me considerable pain, without revealing my identity. I always knew Bitcoin was the future, but then shit coins came around and I thought that maybe all of these digital currencies could collectively help us break away from the dollar and this corrupt evil system we are fixed to live in. Because of this exploration I lost A LOT of money, it was an extremely painful financial lesson. Ultimately, I chose to view it as tuition for my education in shitcoins. Now, I know to never touch them and it’s Bitcoin only for me 🙏 my aha moment of clarity was saifedean (npub1gdu…6nak) ‘s book ‘The Bitcoin Standard’.
I came out of my depression by meditating, reminding myself what others have done is not my fault and I can’t beat myself up for this, spending time in nature, spending time with family, spending time with girlfriends, deleting instagram, getting back in the gym, removing carbs and bad food from my life (this can mess up your gut and this messes with hormones and emotions), and I read ALOT, specifically bitcoin 📚 books!
Oh so you can cook? 👩🍳 well, that’s a great husband skill lol. My mom cooks AMAZING food all week long (unless we grill, that’s my dad’s space) and on the weekends my dad makes a bomb breakfast! And on holidays everyone cooks. Anyways it’s great that you can cook and that you enjoy what you cook, so yeah one step at a time, but food is a big part of begging healthy. Have you ever tried the carnivore diet?
Your comment about wanting to “live a life that's less full of regret than it is of more positive” well I think the best start is just to work on you from the inside out, books, healthy food, and movement to get blood flowing thought your body.
“50 is normal for a man to have a baby?” Well, I can’t say what is normal, I don’t really know what normal is, this idea of. Kemal has always been very hard for me unless I look at statistics. But I can say my friend that had a baby at 40, her husband was 52 🤷♀️ And yeah your friend that told you to stop worrying about what other people might say and just "go for it", is 100% correct!
Re: 27-30 year old woman who would want to go live in the woods with a stubborn old goat like you, well I just know that there are girls into this. I think at some point in my life I also might want that, but right now I love being close to an airport, I love knowing I can order food to my house at any time, I love knowing there are many cute parks to walk around, shows (I love ballet) to see every week… and I suppose my girlfriends are in the same mindset as me. But I know there are girls that are into the woods life and actually hate the city life, so I think what you want is for sure possible. Im also sure there is a woman that can teach you to love yourself, but I suppose this kind of woman will just walk into your life when you least expect it.
I understand the complexities of wanting companionship while grappling with past experiences and uncertainties about the future. I have to say, the self-awareness you possess, even in moments of doubt or self-criticism, is commendable.
I agree words are important. Your words about the importance of communication and valuing our human capacity to connect through words are on point. It's evident that you value authentic connection and deep, meaningful conversations.
Your desire for stillness and the steps you're taking towards positive change, like focusing on diet and seeking moments of peace, are praiseworthy. Every journey starts with small steps, maybe you're on the path and don’t even realize it.
I practice stillness when I meditate. 🧘♀️
We have created quite a long text here 😂 so I hope I responded to everything 👀.
Thank you for sharing your heart and thoughts so openly. I'm happy to listen, offer my insights, and give my support.
💕💕💕💕💕