Daryn Cavalier on Nostr: Congrats to everyone that is truly engaged with and actively participating in ...
Congrats to everyone that is truly engaged with and actively participating in something that they are truly passionate about. Something that is deeply meaningful, something you are excited about getting out of bed for.
While I am personally very happy with my life and have many many things I am forever grateful for and blessed to have, I still have a lot of work to do.
Five days a week I wake up and give over 9 hours of my day to a job. That job is not something that deeply resonates with me. It is not my life's purpose. It is not deeply meaningful to me. It does not bring me excitement and joy. My entire life revolves around and is organized by the amount of time my job requires of me.
It is also not awful. It is alright, it is comfortable. Which is what makes it even more terrifying.
There are many reasons that I have this job and many reasons I do not quit in pursuit of my life's purpose. These reasons are common to many individuals. Chiefly among my own are; my children for whom I am responsible for and servicing my debt.
While I could elaborate on the detail of these aspects of my life I think doing so would be largely redundant. Committing large amounts of time, of life and energy, to something which is not the purpose of my life is a problem that I think most people can identify with.
The struggle I find myself in is multifaceted
First, I have to figure out what my life's purpose is. No small feat. Especially considering the layers and layers of social-societal conditioning that due to my own weakness and lack of self awareness have caused me too develop thoughts and behaviours leading me down years-long pathways only to discover that I have arrived at places that I truly do not want to be and do not resonate with the person I am and want to become. Although, every time I discover what I do not want I get closer to discovering what I do want and this is in fact the manner in which my true lifes purpose is revealed. So there are no dead ends, not really. And even time “wasted” results in valuable lessons. The cost of those lessons is taking action. The hard part is deciding where to focus that action.
Everywhere I look I see enormous piles of shit. Horse shit, Bull shit, dog shit.
For some very understandable reasons I feel that I can not simply quit my job and figure out what I want to do. So, the goal is to start doing something in my free time. Something that I love doing, that interests me. Something I can build. Something I can be proud of! Something that positively impacts the world around me. I want to create value and I want that value to be enough to financially support my life.
I don't want to obtain wealth. I want to focus my life and my energy into creating something worthy of making me wealthy!
As I search, looking for a way to get started, one of the most obvious, most realistic and accessible avenues for this seems to be to create digital content. Podcast, Blog, whatever.
The problem is that this economic model has been completely commandeered by and is entirely driven by a perverse and malicious incentive system. Regardless of what you are creating, the goal is to gain followers, to gain the attention of an audience and then to sell that attention, without permission, to third parties. This is the underlying incentive for nearly the entirety of digital creation. And, the quality of the content that we see today has the same overwhelming, wretched stench of the incentives that create it.
I can not endeavor to create something that, in order to be economically successful, exists to capture and harvest the attention of its supporters.
Also, through my own personal journey, I have developed a very strong opinion that the human body is divine and is perfect. It is never sick, flawed or diseased. It only heals and its capacity to heal comes from within. There is nothing external that anyone needs. Not a pill, a diet, a supplement, a mattress, blue blocking glasses, red light therapy, cold plunges, saunas, gym memberships or dumbbells, barefoot shoes or orthotics.
That is to say that anyone that is selling anything to you is full of shit. Using full of shit studies to sell you full of shit products.
So the question remains; How do I create value?
While I am personally very happy with my life and have many many things I am forever grateful for and blessed to have, I still have a lot of work to do.
Five days a week I wake up and give over 9 hours of my day to a job. That job is not something that deeply resonates with me. It is not my life's purpose. It is not deeply meaningful to me. It does not bring me excitement and joy. My entire life revolves around and is organized by the amount of time my job requires of me.
It is also not awful. It is alright, it is comfortable. Which is what makes it even more terrifying.
There are many reasons that I have this job and many reasons I do not quit in pursuit of my life's purpose. These reasons are common to many individuals. Chiefly among my own are; my children for whom I am responsible for and servicing my debt.
While I could elaborate on the detail of these aspects of my life I think doing so would be largely redundant. Committing large amounts of time, of life and energy, to something which is not the purpose of my life is a problem that I think most people can identify with.
The struggle I find myself in is multifaceted
First, I have to figure out what my life's purpose is. No small feat. Especially considering the layers and layers of social-societal conditioning that due to my own weakness and lack of self awareness have caused me too develop thoughts and behaviours leading me down years-long pathways only to discover that I have arrived at places that I truly do not want to be and do not resonate with the person I am and want to become. Although, every time I discover what I do not want I get closer to discovering what I do want and this is in fact the manner in which my true lifes purpose is revealed. So there are no dead ends, not really. And even time “wasted” results in valuable lessons. The cost of those lessons is taking action. The hard part is deciding where to focus that action.
Everywhere I look I see enormous piles of shit. Horse shit, Bull shit, dog shit.
For some very understandable reasons I feel that I can not simply quit my job and figure out what I want to do. So, the goal is to start doing something in my free time. Something that I love doing, that interests me. Something I can build. Something I can be proud of! Something that positively impacts the world around me. I want to create value and I want that value to be enough to financially support my life.
I don't want to obtain wealth. I want to focus my life and my energy into creating something worthy of making me wealthy!
As I search, looking for a way to get started, one of the most obvious, most realistic and accessible avenues for this seems to be to create digital content. Podcast, Blog, whatever.
The problem is that this economic model has been completely commandeered by and is entirely driven by a perverse and malicious incentive system. Regardless of what you are creating, the goal is to gain followers, to gain the attention of an audience and then to sell that attention, without permission, to third parties. This is the underlying incentive for nearly the entirety of digital creation. And, the quality of the content that we see today has the same overwhelming, wretched stench of the incentives that create it.
I can not endeavor to create something that, in order to be economically successful, exists to capture and harvest the attention of its supporters.
Also, through my own personal journey, I have developed a very strong opinion that the human body is divine and is perfect. It is never sick, flawed or diseased. It only heals and its capacity to heal comes from within. There is nothing external that anyone needs. Not a pill, a diet, a supplement, a mattress, blue blocking glasses, red light therapy, cold plunges, saunas, gym memberships or dumbbells, barefoot shoes or orthotics.
That is to say that anyone that is selling anything to you is full of shit. Using full of shit studies to sell you full of shit products.
So the question remains; How do I create value?