Miakoda on Nostr: It's like my brain is just re-processing my entire life with the new knowledge I'm ...

It's like my brain is just re-processing my entire life with the new knowledge I'm autistic, just running in the background. And then I just get hit with more results of that. Tonight's.. I'm pissed off at how much I suppressed the urge to rock. It helps, a lot. Even alone I was suppressing it. Why? I was considered a freak when I wasn't rocking, so what difference did it make? I'm just... mad.