Secessio Plebis on Nostr: I considered quitting nostr. I considered just creating a personal (real name) ...

I considered quitting nostr.

I considered just creating a personal (real name) account and dropping this one.

I considered converting this one to my real name.

Ultimately I deeply fear rejection.

A deep sense of worthlessness.

Of feeling hated.

I've seen hate here pointed in my direction.

Having been told I "add no value" by a certain user, it caused a wonderful agony. For that I'm grateful.

Self hatred. The part of the ego that cannot be overcome, but must be embraced.

I've said some dumb stuff on this profile.

I also feel attachment to some profound moments I've recorded here. Even if it's just screaming into the void.

Oh what to do.

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