Skizmfield GOTY 🌠on Nostr: I'm just fucking exhausted. I've been trying to be proactive the last couple weeks to ...
I'm just fucking exhausted. I've been trying to be proactive the last couple weeks to improve my life and mental stability but I ended up making it worse. I'm just tired. I can't think. I can't plan.
I'm on autopilot all the time because all I do is work. I come up for air a couple hours every week to focus on paying bills or doing chores and then another month has gone by.
I don't feel alive anymore and I've gained like 50lbs in the past 90 days. I just feel like I'm drowning and my chest hurts all the time. I walk about 30,000 steps every night but I'm breathing heavily now. No matter how much I sleep it's never enough. If I sleep 15 hours or 4, I feel exactly the same. If I don't drink for a week or drink every day, I feel exactly the same.
I'm on autopilot all the time because all I do is work. I come up for air a couple hours every week to focus on paying bills or doing chores and then another month has gone by.
I don't feel alive anymore and I've gained like 50lbs in the past 90 days. I just feel like I'm drowning and my chest hurts all the time. I walk about 30,000 steps every night but I'm breathing heavily now. No matter how much I sleep it's never enough. If I sleep 15 hours or 4, I feel exactly the same. If I don't drink for a week or drink every day, I feel exactly the same.