ภ๏รtг๏ภคยt on Nostr: Alot of the time I feel useless, hopeless, and like a piece of shit because I never ...

Alot of the time I feel useless, hopeless, and like a piece of shit because I never learned useful skills growing up, just survival.

Today, it feels like im stuck in survival mode with concrete shoes. Double my income and still can't even get gifts for Christmas...
Why did I even put up a tree....

I honestly hate my life....
Working to pay bills just to work and pay bills with no end in sight...

Thinking back.... honestly....I miss being homeless and care free.
Showering under waterfalls. Sleeping on the beach under the moon with a fire close by. Meeting new people. Going new places.

Why did I ever think family life and all these bills was the right path...