clarissa on Nostr: There's something very difficult about keeping and maintaining an external record of ...

There's something very difficult about keeping and maintaining an external record of consciousness

the traumatized self uses a short window of memory to cope, never seeing too much of existence or too many selves at once

accessing years of notes, written in notebooks, or spread out into hyperlinked personal wikis forces so many thoughts and ideas and wants and hurts into the now that it's a kind of cognitive overload like having a hundred internal monologues going at once