Martin Schiller {soapbox} on Nostr: A few years ago when i was at the peak of my anxiety i started going into the ice ...

A few years ago when i was at the peak of my anxiety i started going into the ice cold lake everyday (it was winter, and i was living in Germany at that time). I went everyday, no matter what the weather was like, snowing or raining - didn't matter. Got into the lake and swam in it until i felt nothing at all. The anxiety was unbearable, but after spending some minutes in that water everything would get numb and i would not feel anything anymore. Afterwards i would feel anxiety free for a few hours. The next morning i would cycle to the lake again... I kept doing for three months.

It changed my mindset, my daily anxiety simply dissapeared afterwards.

The anxiety was truly awful and i wished to just die at the time as it was too painful, the lake saved me. It was my sanctuary, giving myself to the ice water felt like i could just stay there if i really didn't want to live anymore. But eventually i would get out of the water and live another day.