whoever relays stuff 🇵🇸🏴‍☠️🇺🇲 on Nostr: Most of the intelligence boosting just came from making me need to impress her, ...

Most of the intelligence boosting just came from making me need to impress her, forcing me to try harder and think more clearly. She tried to teach me a lot but it's hard to learn a lot of actual knowledge in constant panic. There was her getting cancer and later being suicidal to panic about when we were talking.

The main fact I remember from her sharing it is that environmental enrichment doesn't stop isolation stress from causing amyloid plaques to build up in the brains of mice, making them more anxious and violent. Human experiments to double check if this applies to humans aren't allowed, but it does. All my money and toys are not significantly helpful in the reality that I'm banned, blocked, muted etc. constantly by people who have also used the COVID bioweapon pandemic to ruin the possibility of organizing afk.

Without meaning to, she did accidentally teach me people are even worse than I realized, because I always thought being a fat ugly guy explained most of my problems, so it was shocking to meet a hot girl who also gets punished so much life is miserable for her just because she's smart and tries her best and everyone fucking hates that