violetmadder on Nostr: npub1gmx4v…jatcq Most times I tried to fight back, I got in trouble-- which sent me ...
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Most times I tried to fight back, I got in trouble-- which sent me the message that I didn't have the right to stand up for myself. That on top of the message that I was getting picked on in the first place for being "different" and that the best way to handle it would be to "not react". So I internalized that I'd brought it on myself, didn't have the right to fight back, and that not being able to stop crying about it meant there's something wrong with me.
My parents eventually put me in a self-defense class. That was interesting, because I didn't actually NEED to fight anybody after that. The bullies just started mysteriously leaving me alone, like they could smell it on me.
Most times I tried to fight back, I got in trouble-- which sent me the message that I didn't have the right to stand up for myself. That on top of the message that I was getting picked on in the first place for being "different" and that the best way to handle it would be to "not react". So I internalized that I'd brought it on myself, didn't have the right to fight back, and that not being able to stop crying about it meant there's something wrong with me.
My parents eventually put me in a self-defense class. That was interesting, because I didn't actually NEED to fight anybody after that. The bullies just started mysteriously leaving me alone, like they could smell it on me.