soraya on Nostr: I have been a problem, yes. I'm not perfect. I will never be perfect. I've done awful ...

I have been a problem, yes. I'm not perfect. I will never be perfect. I've done awful things that keep me up at night. But I only take accountability for things I have done, not for things men have chosen to do to me.

It's been years since I had a relationship with someone I truly adored. I did care for him, I got involved in all of his interests (he never got involved in mine) but after that ended my experiences with men just kept getting worse and worse. You are correct in saying that I messed up by choosing to be around awful men, but that doesn't absolve men from all wrongdoing. I was only with the last guy for the sake of not being alone, he liked me but I didn't feel right being with him at all, and thinking about it now that was equally as bad for him as it was for me.

And yes, the guy I'm speaking about does have a crush on me, or at least he did when we were talking. Everyone in the room could see it. I don't hate him.

I understand where you are coming from but please understand I am not a horrible selfish monster bitch. Or at least I used to not be one.