Cariad 🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️ on Nostr: Just something I’ve been thinking about: I don’t think I want to be a game dev ...
Just something I’ve been thinking about: I don’t think I want to be a game dev any more?
It feels like months since I last opened Godot. And I miss coding. And drawing. And making music. But putting them together into a thing to be experienced is more stress than fun. I never got the hang of that bit, and I don’t think I care to learn. The gigabytes upon gigabytes of abandoned projects are testament to that.
I think my competitive lizard brain ruins it a bit. Also, honestly, I suppose I got into the hobby because I wanted to be more like my heroes, not because I felt some great love for the art. I certainly got a bit parasocial with some of those heroes. It’s weird to recognise it, now that I’m thinking about it.
So yeah, I don’t know. It doesn’t feel like a break-up. It’s more like remembering someone you loved a lifetime ago. It sucks, but s’alright.
It feels like months since I last opened Godot. And I miss coding. And drawing. And making music. But putting them together into a thing to be experienced is more stress than fun. I never got the hang of that bit, and I don’t think I care to learn. The gigabytes upon gigabytes of abandoned projects are testament to that.
I think my competitive lizard brain ruins it a bit. Also, honestly, I suppose I got into the hobby because I wanted to be more like my heroes, not because I felt some great love for the art. I certainly got a bit parasocial with some of those heroes. It’s weird to recognise it, now that I’m thinking about it.
So yeah, I don’t know. It doesn’t feel like a break-up. It’s more like remembering someone you loved a lifetime ago. It sucks, but s’alright.