Kestrel: 0.42 Zoes on Nostr: It's wild writing my resume and realizing that the last 15 years of my life was lived ...
It's wild writing my resume and realizing that the last 15 years of my life was lived in a mindless fugue that I don't even really remember. It was just a dysphoric haze.
I keep thinking "What I do is–" and then realizing that, no, I haven't actually done that. I went to graduate school for that, and I wanted to do that, but then dysphoria became too much and I just mentally vanished for 15 years.
Fucking hell.
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