The Gaptangle on Nostr: I feel permanently broken. I feel like I can't mend. Now I'm not just scared of ...

I feel permanently broken. I feel like I can't mend. Now I'm not just scared of everyone running around tearing each other down...I can no longer imagine anything else. I can no longer believe anything else is happening. Everyone stayed with me just to find enough ammunition to tear me down. I shouldn't have trusted. But that's beside the point. I don't have the fight left in me to care about what I distrust anymore. I spilled my soul out knowing they'd run off and use it--I did so fully intending it. I showed my vulnerability meaning for you to run off and make shit up about it. Because no one will stop. If I just had something to believe in--but no, because I gave up hoping to see events that would restore hope for tomorrow in me, because that just got me hurt.