npub1qg…0q977 on Nostr: I didn't want to remember. Remembering meant letting the pain continue to exist. But ...

I didn't want to remember. Remembering meant letting the pain continue to exist.

But I also didn't want to find out that I was in love with you. Being in love with you meant understanding the pain, validating it.

But I guess pushing away the facts was only ever destined to last so long.

If only life went the way we wanted. If only people did the things we wanted them to do. Maybe then the pain wouldn't have existed for either of us.

I can't run from the pain anymore, and it's not for lack of trying. My body wont let me.

So I suppose now I'll just sit here.
And hurt.
And remember.