moonchildwander on Nostr: Well 2023 was an emotional roller coaster due to a bout of spiritual psychosis that ...

Well 2023 was an emotional roller coaster due to a bout of spiritual psychosis that lasted from spring to summer. The internet is the trigger but only if it gets interpersonal. As long as o stay distant I’m in the clear. I feel nothing towards ge who holds the trigger as I created him and the trigger in order to get triggered. Sad but true. Cheers 🥂 to 2024 where my apotheosis awaits or not who cares desire for apotheosis impedes apotheosis so I’m literally back at square one ☝️seeking the Book of Pleasure in my daily interactions. I don’t forgive I don’t forget I simply move on with a stain upon my heart. It is what it is I care less for Christ consciousness than I do for my coffee brand. Zen to the core. Atheist satanist Muslim spins on wheel 🛞 of life. I thought I wanted friends but all I want is to penetrate the void more and more resonance is all