Skizmfield GOTY 🌠 on Nostr: I drink a lot of water, always have. But since I turned forty several years ago, I ...

I drink a lot of water, always have. But since I turned forty several years ago, I wake up to piss every two hours. I haven't slept an 8 hour uninterrupted sleep in many years. I've always been depressed for about thirty years or longer, but I think there's nothing wrong with me because it's a natural reaction to how chaotic society has become. Same with insomnia, I don't remember not having it and I'm a light sleeper. I also have PTSD and audio autism, so sleeping has never been an option.
I have noticed that I can fall right asleep if I take a shower or I'm drunk (the reason I started drinking when I was 28). And for some reason, the only times in my life that I've ever gotten really good rest is whenever I'm supposed to be at work, in class, or any social obligations; but stay home instead. I don't know wtf that is.