Love on Nostr: Only the ego lives in time. I'm old. I look old. It's too late. Is this all I could ...

Only the ego lives in time.

I'm old.
I look old.
It's too late.
Is this all I could achieve?
I thought I'd have more by now.
I thought I'd have achieved something.
I'd thought I'd have more to show.
I should have done x a decade ago.
I wish I could go back 20 years.

I wish I could know I'll be safe.
To know how it ends, that it ends in wealth and happiness and statues and songs of praise and the embrace of angel's wings. To know it works out with no pain but with adversity and triumpf but with ease and no effort and guiltless pride.

Backwards
Forwards
None of it real