Empty Shell on Nostr: I love it way too much. As a matter of fact there's a little dark story about it. In ...

I love it way too much. As a matter of fact there's a little dark story about it.
In 2018 my wife lost our child after 4 monthes of pregnancy. We were devastated and decided to take a break far away from everything on the country side, in a house that would endure a tsunami of tears.
But for some strange reason, I just couldn't cry like she did, my body didn't want it. It also didn't wanted to piss indoors anymore too, don't know why and thanks to which spell (guess I could have forced myself to, but there was a strange mental lock). It was so awkward 'cuz even with a bathroom available I just had to go outdoors for it to happen.

At first I was kinda shy, I just had no alternative and I wasn't really proud of this weird mess.
But then I got used to it, and enjoyed the little game of hide and seek it implied. So even when the trauma cooled down and let me inside again, I didn't wanted to do it indoors anymore.
Of course, for obvious reasons I don't do it outdoors on a daily basis ... but this stupid childish habit comes back whenever it can.