Desire-kun on Nostr: prettygood since 2020 my dedication to my cause has come into question since i can't ...
prettygood (nprofile…pl7n) since 2020 my dedication to my cause has come into question since i can't make any progress on it for the time being, so to prove myself to myself, whenever i walk past certain spots i'll do a little certain something every time, so long as nothing important's stopping me from doing it.
i do it on average around 40 times per day (just a guess) and every single time it takes a little bit of effort to accomplish. the fact that it takes effort but i'm still willing to do it proves to me that i'm still dedicated. my mind sometimes screams at me that it is sick and tired of doing it, and that it is a waste of time, but the one time i tried stopping i just got really angry and gained newfound motivation to keep on as well as an even stronger desire to stick to the habit.
don't worry, if you ever lose or break the ring it won't change how you feel. i've learned that from my own experiences with my own charms.
maybe one day i won't need the habit to prove myself, but for the time being i really want to see how long i can keep the habit going.
i do it on average around 40 times per day (just a guess) and every single time it takes a little bit of effort to accomplish. the fact that it takes effort but i'm still willing to do it proves to me that i'm still dedicated. my mind sometimes screams at me that it is sick and tired of doing it, and that it is a waste of time, but the one time i tried stopping i just got really angry and gained newfound motivation to keep on as well as an even stronger desire to stick to the habit.
don't worry, if you ever lose or break the ring it won't change how you feel. i've learned that from my own experiences with my own charms.
maybe one day i won't need the habit to prove myself, but for the time being i really want to see how long i can keep the habit going.