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I watched Life After Beth, the first product of Aubrey Plaza and Jeff Baena working together as a pair. Before watching Ingrid Goes West, this is the movie I expected to be most painful out of the couple's collective filmographies, because making this movie was a chance for the couple to discuss topics of death and loss and grief, and prepare each other for possible losses, and I never got much time for any of that with Digit. I never got to ask what she meant the one time she said I'm "not loyal," I never got her permission to move on, and if she's gone I don't imagine I can move on, even though we were just friends. This movie's entire concept seemed like it would taunt me over that.
But it's just a movie, and I knew it must be more painful for Aubrey Plaza herself to watch, so I wouldn't skip it.
The first thought I had other than expecting pain was to appreciate the really good soundtrack.
I was hit hard by the line "I really didn't take enough pictures. So foolish."
I really didn't take enough screenshots. So foolish.
And then, "you know, I'll never play music again."
I keep struggling with whether I can release original music without knowing if she's safe. I know if she's gone, I never can do any music again, original or otherwise. I don't know if I should without knowing. If she's alive, getting good at music could help me find her and be useful to her. But I don't want to do it without her. So far I've only released edits/remixes and I don't know if that's been the right thing to do either.
It sucks how if Aubrey Plaza watches this movie it will probably be incredibly painful, and if she never watches it again, leaving it behind might be painful too. The pain of such a loss is amplified by so many dark choices like that, where both options just lead back to the pain in different ways.
This movie is almost as painful to watch as Ingrid Goes West. After seeing Ingrid Goes West, I didn't think it would be able to come close.
The movie seems to promote the idea of being able to move on. The main character isn't overly attached. That's good for Aubrey I guess.
The guy Beth ate in this movie is way more interesting than the main character because of that lack of attachment. Beth said that guy actually cared about her. I wanna be the guy that gets eaten. On the other hand, it's sad how zombie women will eat guys that actually care, while really loving and having some aversion to eating some guy that barely cares.
Jeff Baena is a way more interesting person than me. His thoughts on a zombie apocalypse involved mostly the painful stuff we all don't want to consider, about how survivors might be personally impacted.
But I'm not the normies the shooter brother is satirizing - I've thought about how to try to keep the zombies alive instead of just the normie topic of how to survive. I'll never know if Jeff Baena would see me as the type of guy being satirized there. That's painful. I wish he was alive.
The movie gets much better when the main character really seems to care about Beth. At least he's not completely too soulless to appreciate her and the stuff in the beginning wasn't just bullshit.
The ending of this movie seems like it would be more painful for Jeff Baena to watch after losing Aubrey Plaza than it can be for her to watch after losing him. In fact, if I made this movie with Digit, the idea of outliving her after making this movie together would be so terrifying - I hate that this reads like a joke because it's not: I might commit suicide around age 47 to avoid outliving her in that situation. I don't know how to phrase that being more clear that it's not supposed to be funny. But my life would be a small price to pay for me and Digit being the ones that made this movie together and spent our lives together. I don't know if I'm just reaching based on projection, but I bet life was so worth it for Jeff Baena.
The ending also reaffirms for me that I don't want to be this movie's main character, I want to be the guy that gets eaten because he actually cares. Whoever wrote this movie is a genius for including that part. I do understand that line was ironic, I'm just interpreting it in a different light.
I don't know if Aubrey Plaza can watch this movie after losing Jeff Baena, but I definitely can't ever handle watching it again if I find out Digit is gone. I'm so fucking scared.
I watched Life After Beth, the first product of Aubrey Plaza and Jeff Baena working together as a pair. Before watching Ingrid Goes West, this is the movie I expected to be most painful out of the couple's collective filmographies, because making this movie was a chance for the couple to discuss topics of death and loss and grief, and prepare each other for possible losses, and I never got much time for any of that with Digit. I never got to ask what she meant the one time she said I'm "not loyal," I never got her permission to move on, and if she's gone I don't imagine I can move on, even though we were just friends. This movie's entire concept seemed like it would taunt me over that.
But it's just a movie, and I knew it must be more painful for Aubrey Plaza herself to watch, so I wouldn't skip it.
The first thought I had other than expecting pain was to appreciate the really good soundtrack.
I was hit hard by the line "I really didn't take enough pictures. So foolish."
I really didn't take enough screenshots. So foolish.
And then, "you know, I'll never play music again."
I keep struggling with whether I can release original music without knowing if she's safe. I know if she's gone, I never can do any music again, original or otherwise. I don't know if I should without knowing. If she's alive, getting good at music could help me find her and be useful to her. But I don't want to do it without her. So far I've only released edits/remixes and I don't know if that's been the right thing to do either.
It sucks how if Aubrey Plaza watches this movie it will probably be incredibly painful, and if she never watches it again, leaving it behind might be painful too. The pain of such a loss is amplified by so many dark choices like that, where both options just lead back to the pain in different ways.
This movie is almost as painful to watch as Ingrid Goes West. After seeing Ingrid Goes West, I didn't think it would be able to come close.
The movie seems to promote the idea of being able to move on. The main character isn't overly attached. That's good for Aubrey I guess.
The guy Beth ate in this movie is way more interesting than the main character because of that lack of attachment. Beth said that guy actually cared about her. I wanna be the guy that gets eaten. On the other hand, it's sad how zombie women will eat guys that actually care, while really loving and having some aversion to eating some guy that barely cares.
Jeff Baena is a way more interesting person than me. His thoughts on a zombie apocalypse involved mostly the painful stuff we all don't want to consider, about how survivors might be personally impacted.
But I'm not the normies the shooter brother is satirizing - I've thought about how to try to keep the zombies alive instead of just the normie topic of how to survive. I'll never know if Jeff Baena would see me as the type of guy being satirized there. That's painful. I wish he was alive.
The movie gets much better when the main character really seems to care about Beth. At least he's not completely too soulless to appreciate her and the stuff in the beginning wasn't just bullshit.
The ending of this movie seems like it would be more painful for Jeff Baena to watch after losing Aubrey Plaza than it can be for her to watch after losing him. In fact, if I made this movie with Digit, the idea of outliving her after making this movie together would be so terrifying - I hate that this reads like a joke because it's not: I might commit suicide around age 47 to avoid outliving her in that situation. I don't know how to phrase that being more clear that it's not supposed to be funny. But my life would be a small price to pay for me and Digit being the ones that made this movie together and spent our lives together. I don't know if I'm just reaching based on projection, but I bet life was so worth it for Jeff Baena.
The ending also reaffirms for me that I don't want to be this movie's main character, I want to be the guy that gets eaten because he actually cares. Whoever wrote this movie is a genius for including that part. I do understand that line was ironic, I'm just interpreting it in a different light.
I don't know if Aubrey Plaza can watch this movie after losing Jeff Baena, but I definitely can't ever handle watching it again if I find out Digit is gone. I'm so fucking scared.