~vidak :emacs: on Nostr: you know, when i am abused all day, day in day out, i feel like a ghost. slowly, ...

you know, when i am abused all day, day in day out, i feel like a ghost. slowly, slowly, i seem to lose all the colour from my appearance. then, like a shadow, i fade away.

i came close to disappearing all together this time. i would have become more and more dim, until i was totally invisible.

i would have been fully brutalised, a husk, a shell of a person, totally broken. my spirit would have been broken; i would have forgotten how to return to who i really was.