npub1zh…ggdq0 on Nostr: anyways, I have to literally just mute him for at least 24 hours if I'm gonna talk ...
anyways, I have to literally just mute him for at least 24 hours if I'm gonna talk about anything serious because he always does this thing where the moment I say anything serious he just posts memes and tries to deflect. he knows this stuff circulates and so do I, but it's like, well duh bitch.
it's just funny how terse everyone is getting and how they're trying to pretend this is just somebody "sowing the seeds of division" but even the literal Democrat Party can attest to his involvement. that's probably what's fueling a lot of this also, sad to say, but like, yes they are very corrupt...but so are you. you saw some of those same people at the Diddy parties. they have alleged that you have a preference for much younger women and that's why they were so concerned about his interest in me.
at the time, people were alleging that I was a child because I looked like one. I think the CIA presumed that that's why these elite probable or actual pedos were trying to make contact. even Disney was on the hunt, but I didn't exactly do well in the Hollywood "you gotta start somewhere" prostitute-to-star pipeline, so there was a subsequent push to have me institutionalized and I presume Elon was always a fan of that idea, too.
they almost succeeded, and only got so far as to have me injured by a police officer, but even still, I was basically perfectly coherent and cogent in a situation that would have made some people just kill themselves.
tbh, I just think that all pedophiles and rapists and sexual predators have split personalities and they aren't aware of when the other one takes over. it's like being under a demonic spell and I know this because I've seen it happen to men. when this happens to women, it's usually because they are using the same mechanism to split off from the trauma.
I've always been fairly resistant to this despite knowing that this splitting off thing is what abusers require of their victims in order to just survive around them. I committed myself at a young age to remaining centered about it, to be a whole being and not a fractured one, and I believe that being a musician and singer helped me. it's almost impossible to get into the right frame of mind where you can fully express yourself creatively if you are blocking off pain.
quite literally, all those hidden emotions affect the voice and make those little parts of the instrument difficult to control. that thing about having a lump in the throat is more or less a telltale sign of emotional distress. I would know because I used to wake up with it so bad during junior high and high school that I could hardly speak for most of the day. pretty sure it's not impossible to understand why.
but people deal with pain in a lot of different ways, and I've always hated people who are like crabs in shells. they have this fragile armor the cracks easily and then they ooze self-loathing and whatever. my father obviously relates to the man so he's not exactly a reliable source of support and I never say shit about him.
of course, today was interesting because I did finally say "uh, that man is such a liar" to my dad, who was watching his most recent stammer-fest. no offense to stammerers btw, but when it's that bad and it's hard to get thoughts out, it's time to take a rest. anyways, he was like, "he's a businessman of course he lies, but he recognizes liars, so." I said, "liars exposing liars is an interesting way to look at it," and then went silent.
I'll leave the math up to whoever wants to do it on that one. should only take a split second. did I mention that these types of men like to collude with family members of their targets to instigate open seasons? like. in case their target is a bit of a 'hermit' or 'recluse', that is.
I don't think I've mentioned enough about how literally fucking scared I was for years because nobody wanted to tell me who was trying to kill me and I only figured out bits and pieces because some kind people within the IC leaked info to me.
it's just funny how terse everyone is getting and how they're trying to pretend this is just somebody "sowing the seeds of division" but even the literal Democrat Party can attest to his involvement. that's probably what's fueling a lot of this also, sad to say, but like, yes they are very corrupt...but so are you. you saw some of those same people at the Diddy parties. they have alleged that you have a preference for much younger women and that's why they were so concerned about his interest in me.
at the time, people were alleging that I was a child because I looked like one. I think the CIA presumed that that's why these elite probable or actual pedos were trying to make contact. even Disney was on the hunt, but I didn't exactly do well in the Hollywood "you gotta start somewhere" prostitute-to-star pipeline, so there was a subsequent push to have me institutionalized and I presume Elon was always a fan of that idea, too.
they almost succeeded, and only got so far as to have me injured by a police officer, but even still, I was basically perfectly coherent and cogent in a situation that would have made some people just kill themselves.
tbh, I just think that all pedophiles and rapists and sexual predators have split personalities and they aren't aware of when the other one takes over. it's like being under a demonic spell and I know this because I've seen it happen to men. when this happens to women, it's usually because they are using the same mechanism to split off from the trauma.
I've always been fairly resistant to this despite knowing that this splitting off thing is what abusers require of their victims in order to just survive around them. I committed myself at a young age to remaining centered about it, to be a whole being and not a fractured one, and I believe that being a musician and singer helped me. it's almost impossible to get into the right frame of mind where you can fully express yourself creatively if you are blocking off pain.
quite literally, all those hidden emotions affect the voice and make those little parts of the instrument difficult to control. that thing about having a lump in the throat is more or less a telltale sign of emotional distress. I would know because I used to wake up with it so bad during junior high and high school that I could hardly speak for most of the day. pretty sure it's not impossible to understand why.
but people deal with pain in a lot of different ways, and I've always hated people who are like crabs in shells. they have this fragile armor the cracks easily and then they ooze self-loathing and whatever. my father obviously relates to the man so he's not exactly a reliable source of support and I never say shit about him.
of course, today was interesting because I did finally say "uh, that man is such a liar" to my dad, who was watching his most recent stammer-fest. no offense to stammerers btw, but when it's that bad and it's hard to get thoughts out, it's time to take a rest. anyways, he was like, "he's a businessman of course he lies, but he recognizes liars, so." I said, "liars exposing liars is an interesting way to look at it," and then went silent.
I'll leave the math up to whoever wants to do it on that one. should only take a split second. did I mention that these types of men like to collude with family members of their targets to instigate open seasons? like. in case their target is a bit of a 'hermit' or 'recluse', that is.
I don't think I've mentioned enough about how literally fucking scared I was for years because nobody wanted to tell me who was trying to kill me and I only figured out bits and pieces because some kind people within the IC leaked info to me.