Buddha on Nostr: Today was wild. I ended up sitting here pondering all the friends and loved ones ...

Today was wild. I ended up sitting here pondering all the friends and loved ones I’ve lost, for which there are many.. I wished for a moment that I could’ve been there for there final breathes and felt their energy leap through me and bless me with excitement as the old woman’s did earlier today. I want to know that they all felt it before passing. It is extremely moving, I cry writing this. I wonder why after what I’ve felt today? It was real, unequivocally…I know they all felt it.. the peace, the joy, the calming energetic presence that was there throughout there time on Earth, beneath the surface..I didn’t have to be there. But still, I wish I was.

This is just a fast and not even my first! I don’t truly understand what happened here. Truly.

Tomorrow it ends at 1 and I’m not looking forward to it. It feels like leaving the greatest and most humbling and awe inspiring vacation of my life even though I didn’t travel anywhere.