Spyre on Nostr: I had a situation that recently left me with a 50% chance of surviving the next 10 ...

I had a situation that recently left me with a 50% chance of surviving the next 10 years. It has radically altered what I find valuable. Although you may not believe it, I am actually happier now than I have ever been before. I have never had direction and motivation like I do now. Suddenly, my "purpose" has become clear, and I know exactly what I want do, and what to leave behind. I have found a magic (perhaps "spirituality"?) that never existed before in my life. Every day I wake up with an understanding with what gifts I have been given and what they are to be used for. Some may think my situation is tragic, but for me it has created an order to the universe, and I see something special in myself that I previously ignored. My life makes sense now that I can see the end. I am participating joyfully in the sorrow, because these times will never come again.

To answer your question, I am doubling down on my pursuits, because I know they are what makes my legacy, gives my life meaning, and gives me a wealth that could never be achieved from any job or career path. The world seems to be conspiring in my favor because of this knowledge. Daily, I am closer to death, but from my perspective, I have found eternal life in every moment granted. I have discovered an alchemy that has turned my lead soul into gold (or bitcoin, lol!)