ninja8tyu on Nostr: my brain reminds me of my cringe past, and i'm reminded that i've technically never ...
my brain reminds me of my cringe past, and i'm reminded that i've technically never had a father, for the one i have doesn't do his job as one
typically, kids will reference their own parents as role models as what to do in life and how to navigate it, but i have no such role models in my life and it shows
this navigation also applies to emotional stability and intelligence
fundamentally i don't grasp why you would want someone you truly despise as a human being in terms of morals, a threat, public perception, etc, to be spared from a random murder or not be carried out by you yourself, let alone why that would be of practical use nor how to make it of practical use
i've just made the decision to be myself, because it's not like anyone has ever schooled me on how to be better, at least not in a way that feels as if i need to be selfless for their selfishness
typically, kids will reference their own parents as role models as what to do in life and how to navigate it, but i have no such role models in my life and it shows
this navigation also applies to emotional stability and intelligence
fundamentally i don't grasp why you would want someone you truly despise as a human being in terms of morals, a threat, public perception, etc, to be spared from a random murder or not be carried out by you yourself, let alone why that would be of practical use nor how to make it of practical use
i've just made the decision to be myself, because it's not like anyone has ever schooled me on how to be better, at least not in a way that feels as if i need to be selfless for their selfishness