Jasmine running on Nostr: (This one's a bit heavy. I've mentioned it before.) I have a promise to keep. In my ...
(This one's a bit heavy. I've mentioned it before.)
I have a promise to keep.
In my teens and twenties and a bit into my thirties, I had this deep, painful yearning like a broken heart. Some days it would block out everything else. There was a hopefulness but also a deep loneliness to it. Ten years ago, I shut my emotions off and it went silent, like everything else.
When my egg cracked for the final time last spring, it was because I'd seen an HRT timeline, and it triggered this emotion to just explode with an absolutely stunning force. I spent weeks trying to cope, unable to concentrate on anything else.
So I always assumed it was a kind of dysphoria, the “Saudade” dysphoria as I called it.
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I have a promise to keep.
In my teens and twenties and a bit into my thirties, I had this deep, painful yearning like a broken heart. Some days it would block out everything else. There was a hopefulness but also a deep loneliness to it. Ten years ago, I shut my emotions off and it went silent, like everything else.
When my egg cracked for the final time last spring, it was because I'd seen an HRT timeline, and it triggered this emotion to just explode with an absolutely stunning force. I spent weeks trying to cope, unable to concentrate on anything else.
So I always assumed it was a kind of dysphoria, the “Saudade” dysphoria as I called it.
➡️