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2023-12-08 16:13:39

Festive Kiri on Nostr: I’ve been watching through Maddox’s new video, I’ll be the first to admit ...

I’ve been watching through Maddox’s new video, I’ll be the first to admit I’ve, in the past, been a fan of Maddox and not really a fan of Dick - however, him adding his context to the past 5 years is admittedly a very bad look on Dick.

Now, Maddox isn’t exactly the best role model but he did help enlighten me on a few things I have been going through on my side of things (Though admittedly, nowhere near his extent).

This and me separating myself from Fedi this past week or so have allowed me to gain somewhat of an outsider’s perspective to my situation and a fresh, more positive, outlook on matters.

Dick has spoken non-stop about Maddox or 5 years, Maddox has been primarily radio silent. This is, in his words, due to him believing he must “ignore the trolls” a belief that I myself have held… however, my view on this has changed just slightly.

Since joining Fedi, I’ve built a (very insignificant) presence, and as a result of this a few people have taken to “stalking” my feed.

I rarely, if ever, respond to them, as I previously believed they were only looking for a reaction. It’s been months, I’ve given no reaction and they persist: this isn’t trolling, it’s obsession and I’m beginning to feel increasingly uncomfortable with it.

I also have a confession: the past few weeks I’ve planted a couple of bait posts, vague sad-postings and similar things and here’s what I found - every time I post something which has the potential to make me vulnerable they would reply, sometimes within minutes and sometimes hours after the fact. Sometimes I would post something happy, to which they were usually very quick to try and knock me down a peg.

They exist in a world of bitterness, hatred and a vaneer of “self-righteousness”. They take pleasure in attempting to hurt other people, it’s an extremely contemptible way of living.

With this context I’m making a decision in life, one which would compromise the morals of myself only a few months back and one that I hope can convince you to do the same.

If someone is a cunt and if they add nothing but misery to any interaction then block them. They will consider it an “own” or a “victory” - but you are worth more than having someone follow your account for the sole reason of being able to berate and insult you whenever they’re feeling sorry for themselves.

A few of you will understandably be thinking “you’re only just realizing this”? Which, no, I’ve known this for ages but I’ve never experienced it and therefore never really had the context of how it makes you feel in the long term.

I don’t use social media, never did ‘till Fedi, never even used Discord, Mumble or anything outside a steam account, obscure forums and imgboards- a true lurker. Taking part has been one of best and worst decisions I’ve made. But the good outweighs the bad and I want to reduce the bad as much as possible.

TL;DR

Blocking a few people for being losers and I don’t regret it.

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