“Terrorism” Investigator on Nostr: So you're obviously p self aware, do you like argue in your own head about this ...

So you're obviously p self aware, do you like argue in your own head about this stuff? Have you tried finding someone to help you deal with it? What about when certain ppl express real interest in you and your.. identity and then you betray them, how do you justify that and what was the motive behind your actions?