Acoustic on Nostr: I’m afraid that’s just not how my sadism works. It is never a thing of revenge or ...

I’m afraid that’s just not how my sadism works. It is never a thing of revenge or righteousness or anger. If anything, it’s more about evil. Basically the opposite of my ethics, I think.

I can potentially enjoy controlling you because of it, dominating you. Taking your power away. To some extent I do, I sense I have power over you, even if it’s just you enjoying playing along. But I want more.

My own reasoning tells me that I shouldn’t expect you to ever change. That I should accept you as you are. But I have trouble following my own advice, because the truth is, I like you. And it makes my heart ache to know that I probably won’t ever be able to respect you.