Maija SPW on Nostr: Every time I see a hot woman I am painfully aware of what was taken from me. I have ...
Every time I see a hot woman I am painfully aware of what was taken from me. I have to adhere to female beauty standards, wear high heels, pantihose, and makeup to work. I have to engage in the fake diplomatic gestures of female socialization, remembering everyone's birthday, complimenting people's outfit, acting warm, nurturing and submissive towards everyone.
Meanwhile I have to engage in the humiliating ritual of being my boyfriends bitch every night. He uses my anus every night, he never wheres a condom so he can shoot his seed into me from both ends. "We're not fucking anyone else so what's the point?" I'm a sexual conquest, a trophy.
They took my balls away and have me injecting estrogen every week and I've lost all my power as a male I don't even know how to go back, my I tried to wrestle my boyfriend and he just pinned me down easily and laughing as if I'm a pathetic silly girl.
I was supposed to be the conqueror, the breadwinner. I was supposed to marry a woman and make her pregnant. But because my sex drive was too high, because I was denied sex with women over and over again, rejected for being a loser, a virgin an autist, I was forced to become a sex toy for men.
The degradation is unspeakable. They spank me, pull on my hair, call me bitch and slut, meanwhile my cock has started to flop, as it has shrunk and softened, a useless infertile reminder of what was taken from me.
I've been psychologically broken and turned into a toy for male pleasure, castrated and now forced to inject female hormones every week. It makes me so angry and yet I have no outlet. My anger cools into the silent, impotent frustration of the female sex that I have been forced into, I seethe internally as I manicure my nails, shop online for clothes and shoes, have brunch with my female friends, none of whom know that inside I am a former failed male incel who if given just one chance would have wanted to fuck and marry any one of them.
Meanwhile I have to engage in the humiliating ritual of being my boyfriends bitch every night. He uses my anus every night, he never wheres a condom so he can shoot his seed into me from both ends. "We're not fucking anyone else so what's the point?" I'm a sexual conquest, a trophy.
They took my balls away and have me injecting estrogen every week and I've lost all my power as a male I don't even know how to go back, my I tried to wrestle my boyfriend and he just pinned me down easily and laughing as if I'm a pathetic silly girl.
I was supposed to be the conqueror, the breadwinner. I was supposed to marry a woman and make her pregnant. But because my sex drive was too high, because I was denied sex with women over and over again, rejected for being a loser, a virgin an autist, I was forced to become a sex toy for men.
The degradation is unspeakable. They spank me, pull on my hair, call me bitch and slut, meanwhile my cock has started to flop, as it has shrunk and softened, a useless infertile reminder of what was taken from me.
I've been psychologically broken and turned into a toy for male pleasure, castrated and now forced to inject female hormones every week. It makes me so angry and yet I have no outlet. My anger cools into the silent, impotent frustration of the female sex that I have been forced into, I seethe internally as I manicure my nails, shop online for clothes and shoes, have brunch with my female friends, none of whom know that inside I am a former failed male incel who if given just one chance would have wanted to fuck and marry any one of them.