nerdybutcute on Nostr: i hope against hope i can stay in OK and keep my job i love my job i love teaching ...

i hope against hope i can stay in OK and keep my job

i love my job

i love teaching more than anything

but every day i feel in my bones i'm going to have to leave

and leave teaching

and it feels like dying

like i traded one dream for another

like i can't be myself and do what i love at the same time

and it makes me hate myself

and everything i am