Karsten Johansson on Nostr: npub14arwx…s858a Lemme tell you a story from 20 years ago. I met a girl, and she ...
npub14arwxd6054fmf6d27uv3apl736s8f64nr6yh3e09x27tafzv6v3sfs858a (npub14ar…858a) Lemme tell you a story from 20 years ago.
I met a girl, and she was suffering. Over time I got to understand what her various symptoms were, etc, and we got to talking.
She was, as a young person, designated Bipolar. But a damn lot of what she was expressing were not symptoms of bipolar. For example, she would get so paranoid in her own home, she thought an alien dinosaur was living in her bathroom. She'd get so scared she'd have panic attacks. Panic attacks are bipolar 101, but conjuring alien dinos, not so much.
I'd also learned that one of her drugs made her continually stick her tongue out. So then she had another drug that countered that.
It was a LOT of drugs to counteract the prior drug's effects.
So I told her, "Don't take your pills today, I'm going to get you high." and she was all for it.
She didn't smoke, so I had to teach her from the very basics. And she got fried that night.
What she said about the feeling of weed surprised me, "Oh, I feel like this a lot. This is just nicer. A lot nicer."
She stopped taking all of her meds except for one that she knew was actually helping her. Of course she became a mega pothead in the process, but I'd never seen her act and talk so normal before then. It really straightened her out.
The majority of her symptoms were from the drugs and not from her mental condition that started the race.
To this day, now decades later, she sticks to the one drug that lets her relax, and the rest is pot. No more aliens. No more arm cutting. No more any of that crazy shit that was entirely due to the drugs the doctors had given her.
Her arms still look nasty 'cos the scars are permanent. But she does a lot of public speaking on behalf of abuse victims and whatnot and is so productive today.
Her physical health is failing her these days. But her mental health is at a point it had never been before she ever met a psychiatrist.
That's not to say that psychiatrists are bad. It is to say that you must always inwardly inspect and consider what changes happened when in your life. Your p-doc doesn't always know, and sometimes it's hard to inform them accurately, so they just guess and give you a new pill until something finally works.
Every time I hear a person in that cycle talk about being on any more than 3 psych drugs, I know that they're going through exactly that same thing -- chasing their symptoms and their side effects at the same time, forever.
Sorry to ramble so long. I tried to keep this as info-dense as possible. It's a huge subject.
I met a girl, and she was suffering. Over time I got to understand what her various symptoms were, etc, and we got to talking.
She was, as a young person, designated Bipolar. But a damn lot of what she was expressing were not symptoms of bipolar. For example, she would get so paranoid in her own home, she thought an alien dinosaur was living in her bathroom. She'd get so scared she'd have panic attacks. Panic attacks are bipolar 101, but conjuring alien dinos, not so much.
I'd also learned that one of her drugs made her continually stick her tongue out. So then she had another drug that countered that.
It was a LOT of drugs to counteract the prior drug's effects.
So I told her, "Don't take your pills today, I'm going to get you high." and she was all for it.
She didn't smoke, so I had to teach her from the very basics. And she got fried that night.
What she said about the feeling of weed surprised me, "Oh, I feel like this a lot. This is just nicer. A lot nicer."
She stopped taking all of her meds except for one that she knew was actually helping her. Of course she became a mega pothead in the process, but I'd never seen her act and talk so normal before then. It really straightened her out.
The majority of her symptoms were from the drugs and not from her mental condition that started the race.
To this day, now decades later, she sticks to the one drug that lets her relax, and the rest is pot. No more aliens. No more arm cutting. No more any of that crazy shit that was entirely due to the drugs the doctors had given her.
Her arms still look nasty 'cos the scars are permanent. But she does a lot of public speaking on behalf of abuse victims and whatnot and is so productive today.
Her physical health is failing her these days. But her mental health is at a point it had never been before she ever met a psychiatrist.
That's not to say that psychiatrists are bad. It is to say that you must always inwardly inspect and consider what changes happened when in your life. Your p-doc doesn't always know, and sometimes it's hard to inform them accurately, so they just guess and give you a new pill until something finally works.
Every time I hear a person in that cycle talk about being on any more than 3 psych drugs, I know that they're going through exactly that same thing -- chasing their symptoms and their side effects at the same time, forever.
Sorry to ramble so long. I tried to keep this as info-dense as possible. It's a huge subject.