GrowthMindset on Nostr: How do you even start to deal with being forgotten by the man who raised you? ...
How do you even start to deal with being forgotten by the man who raised you?
Dementia is a cruelty to everyone who has to deal with it. From the person who has it, to the family members who take care of them, it breaks you.
I've dealt with death all my life, perks of being a drug addicted child. You lose a lot early on, and learn to deal with it. But this? I don't know how to cope with being forgotten by the man who taught me to ride a bike. I'm no longer his firstborn grandson, I'm just the man who takes care of him in his home. I don't know how to process being treated like a stranger by the man who gave me my most important early lessons. He's the one who inspired me to save my first thousand dollars and buy apple stock, but now he doesn't even remember that. I don't know how to help him when he asks for family members long deceased, or for friends I never knew he had. I don't know what to do anymore. I just go to work, and go home to take care of him. I don't even want to do my Twitter event or engage on social media anymore
I just want my grandfather back.
Life will use pain to teach you, but what is the lesson here?
Ig that's what I get to understand this year.
I'm not sure how I'll grow from this, or how to process it, but I know it isn't the end. In some way, ill come out better on the otherside.
I have so much misplaced anger I don't know what to do with. I can't change anything or make it better. I just have to patient, and learn to enjoy the few lucid moments he has. That's all I know how to do right now..
Dementia is a cruelty to everyone who has to deal with it. From the person who has it, to the family members who take care of them, it breaks you.
I've dealt with death all my life, perks of being a drug addicted child. You lose a lot early on, and learn to deal with it. But this? I don't know how to cope with being forgotten by the man who taught me to ride a bike. I'm no longer his firstborn grandson, I'm just the man who takes care of him in his home. I don't know how to process being treated like a stranger by the man who gave me my most important early lessons. He's the one who inspired me to save my first thousand dollars and buy apple stock, but now he doesn't even remember that. I don't know how to help him when he asks for family members long deceased, or for friends I never knew he had. I don't know what to do anymore. I just go to work, and go home to take care of him. I don't even want to do my Twitter event or engage on social media anymore
I just want my grandfather back.
Life will use pain to teach you, but what is the lesson here?
Ig that's what I get to understand this year.
I'm not sure how I'll grow from this, or how to process it, but I know it isn't the end. In some way, ill come out better on the otherside.
I have so much misplaced anger I don't know what to do with. I can't change anything or make it better. I just have to patient, and learn to enjoy the few lucid moments he has. That's all I know how to do right now..