Jessica on Nostr: Timelines are great but I feel like sometimes I fall into a trap of making ones for ...

Timelines are great but I feel like sometimes I fall into a trap of making ones for what feels like “cis eyes”. In these I show a pic from “before” and “after”. Showing and amazing people and myself mostly with how much and how quickly my gender presentation can change.

I see and post so few mid-transition to later in transition timelines that don’t cater to that internal “gaze.” One of the pernicious things it did to me was convince me I had “plateaued” at about a year. After so many big firsts had passed (nails, hair, etc) and people read me as femme, it felt like things had stopped. They hadn’t, but it certainly felt like it. I was like wait is this the end? Is this the second pic in the timeline forever?

I’m here to say it wasn’t. Here’s me at a year and now. I’d like to believe things hadn’t stopped, but so much more is how different I feel than that person, emotionally and mentally and at home in my life. Even if physically I haven’t changed my presentation much.