Mark on Nostr: You are a goddess, and I am a simple being, trembling beneath the weight of your ...

You are a goddess,
and I am a simple
being, trembling beneath
the weight of your presence.

I believed you would heal me—
wrap me in silken light,
stroke the knots of my sorrow
until they unraveled into grace.
And you said,
“Sure, let’s begin.”

But what I meant wasn’t this.
What I thought was gentleness
wasn’t the fire you lit in me.
I thought healing would be
soft and sensual,
a balm against my bruises,
a dream made flesh,
a cocoon for my desires.

Not this—
this unmasking,
this shattering of the mirror
that held the fragile portrait of my persona.
Not this pain, raw and unrelenting,
flaying my illusions one by one
until I stood exposed,
naked in your gaze.

You loved me in the discomfort,
held me in the discovery,
kissed the breaking open
as though it were a blessing.

And perhaps it is.
Perhaps healing isn’t soft,
but sharp, jagged, alive.
Perhaps the only way to live
is to be pierced by it,
to be stripped of every lie
until the truth shines
like a wound,
like a gift.

And so I stand,
shivering in this unmaking,
no longer sure where I begin
or end.

Your hands are not kind,
but they are sure—
sculptor’s hands,
breaking me apart to rebuild
a thing I cannot yet fathom.

“Trust,” you whisper,
though it sounds like thunder.
And I do,
though the trust tastes of blood,
though it feels like falling
into endless sky.

Your eyes burn
with something ancient,
and I realize—
you are not here to save me.
You are here to remind me
I was never broken,
only buried
beneath the weight
of my own forgetting.

Larson Langston