Vance on Nostr: 0.2 grams of psilocybin micro dose a long swim at the beach, a conversation with my ...
0.2 grams of psilocybin micro dose a long swim at the beach, a conversation with my disconnected inner child/psyche and some drawing where I feel very calm and relaxed, whole, integrated.
My insight today is that the inner child when more fully understood is the inner parts of our psyche which were paused in their development by trauma. Often our trauma happens when we are young and hence we call it an inner child because it stops developing and being integrated into the whole when traumatized. Hence it has childlike qualities becauase it never progressed and grew from there. Its hard to explain.
With this insight I then started to help him progress. Hes very inquisitive. Lots of questions so I just explain whatever he asks and try to tech to him the other parts of the psyche and about what they do. The ones more inhabited by the the adult version of ourselves. I treat him like my child cos he is in a sense. Im hia mentor. A positive, guiding hand that a young man needs and perhaps was depriived from him in real time.
Slowly im bringing him into the whole. Merging the disconnected parts of my psyche.
For some reason I think 18 more days of this is necessary. The universe speaks and I try to listen. We are never truly alone - even nobody else is around.
#art #artstr #microdose #psychedelics #healing #arthritis #helthstr #mentalhealth
The art below is unrelated in some ways but my inner child enjoys drawing and colours and the smoothe feel of a felt tip pen on fresh paper. This is the Sandskrit word for discipline.
My insight today is that the inner child when more fully understood is the inner parts of our psyche which were paused in their development by trauma. Often our trauma happens when we are young and hence we call it an inner child because it stops developing and being integrated into the whole when traumatized. Hence it has childlike qualities becauase it never progressed and grew from there. Its hard to explain.
With this insight I then started to help him progress. Hes very inquisitive. Lots of questions so I just explain whatever he asks and try to tech to him the other parts of the psyche and about what they do. The ones more inhabited by the the adult version of ourselves. I treat him like my child cos he is in a sense. Im hia mentor. A positive, guiding hand that a young man needs and perhaps was depriived from him in real time.
Slowly im bringing him into the whole. Merging the disconnected parts of my psyche.
For some reason I think 18 more days of this is necessary. The universe speaks and I try to listen. We are never truly alone - even nobody else is around.
#art #artstr #microdose #psychedelics #healing #arthritis #helthstr #mentalhealth
The art below is unrelated in some ways but my inner child enjoys drawing and colours and the smoothe feel of a felt tip pen on fresh paper. This is the Sandskrit word for discipline.