emily on Nostr: Went to take some mushrooms this weekend because I've been so mentally blocked and ...

Went to take some mushrooms this weekend because I've been so mentally blocked and distracted, and needing a new mindshift. I was took a small dose to start instead of going full heroic because I had the time and that's just how my anxious self works sometimes... as soon as I started to trip I immediately realized that I couldn't possibly receive any insights like this... I was expecting a quick fix for something that required me to put in some work first. My space was as cluttered my mind, I've been neglecting the gym, my spiritual practices, my diet, my freaking budget spreadsheet. So instead I started cleaning. Sorted through my belongings threw away 2 garbage bags worth of shit and man: the energy in here is TOTALLY different already. I still had homework from middle school and like university papers in my closet - no wonder I was feeling stagnant!? And I can't blame that on not travelling. So I spent the last two days journalling and continuing to sort though old belongings for donation. I will probably take all week to do the whole house while I catch up on my work, get to the gym, run my digital errands (laptop is a mess too), back up some things on hard drives and just take care of this huge list of miscellaneous stuff... and THEN I'm gonna try the shrooms again haha. I'm ready for a new chapter and I really wanna be ready to receive... no shortcuts. 🍄

Is there a hashtag for this I wonder? Where do I find #psychedelic #shroom community on here heh