Sean Tilley on Nostr: Some days, I think that maybe I should just stop writing, burn my site down, and ...
Some days, I think that maybe I should just stop writing, burn my site down, and disappear.
I love doing what I do, and I know there are areas in which I need to improve. But, the last few big articles have been rough for me. People have gotten really angry with me for a variety of reasons, some of which I fundamentally disagree with. But, it forces me to look inwards.
Maybe it's my fragile white male ego, my mediocrity, my deep cynicism, or my stupidity. Maybe I'm just a worthless piece of shit.
I think what terrifies me is that I want to make a living doing this down the road, but I'm thin-skinned and fragile. I live for the acceptance of other people, because my self-image is distorted beyond recognition.
I love doing what I do, and I know there are areas in which I need to improve. But, the last few big articles have been rough for me. People have gotten really angry with me for a variety of reasons, some of which I fundamentally disagree with. But, it forces me to look inwards.
Maybe it's my fragile white male ego, my mediocrity, my deep cynicism, or my stupidity. Maybe I'm just a worthless piece of shit.
I think what terrifies me is that I want to make a living doing this down the road, but I'm thin-skinned and fragile. I live for the acceptance of other people, because my self-image is distorted beyond recognition.