mleku on Nostr: starting yesterday, i have sworn off alcohol, in the name of Jesus - which has made ...
starting yesterday, i have sworn off alcohol, in the name of Jesus - which has made it really easy to do!
it was prompted by some incidents, notably me having a nasty accident on a bicycle due to my poor, intoxicated judgement, and then getting into a group voice chat with some fellow nostriches in which i was much too forthcoming
anyhow, as well as all that, i was resuming my work doing dev grant projects for "crypto" projects, in this case, an aggregator for arweave that will be integrating with a video sharing site and hosted on the AO subnet, the so-called "permaweb"
being sober is going to be critical to me managing my work better - the previous project probably would have been done better if i'd been more sober, well, i'm going to be sober as a monk from now on, and in this time, i am only clocking 80 hours a month on this work, and then the rest of my time is free to work on my own things
...Of which one thing is going to be a total re-do of my previous relay work that possibly by the end of this month will be ready to drop into place with previous code to work with ICP (lots of examples of Go based relays to pick out the best one architecture-wise so i don't run into a resource bug issue like i have building from fiatjaf's khatru)
so, now, to finish these envelope codecs... i've done the bech32 encoder now as bytes-only (no strings) and i've done nip-42 auth envelopes, working on the count envelope and i wanted to make sure i had the bech32 encodings from nip-19 ginned up to be able to be used with a freelist pool - but the bech32 entities are not so important to the relay, but i wanted to use bech32 encoding for a standard form of subscription ID anyhow, so i made it nice
one of the things that is starting to become very clear to me is that the drinking was motivated by a sense of futility about trying to achieve anything in a world where darkness has almost completely eclipsed the light
this was leading to immune problems, kidney problems, liver problems, mental problems, accidents, and antisocial behaviour and while i have learned to behave better, and probably metabolise it way faster than most people, it just was a trap, and a thing that lets me get caught up in things i should avoid, and spending money that i don't want to spend, because i want to save it so i can have my hermitage, since at this point i'm most likely going to die alone
well, maybe being sober will mean i don't die alone, but i can't unsee the darkness around me, shadows even in some of the brightest places, only way to really be happy when this is the situation, is to do my best to protect myself and bring light where i can
you can all still GFY but i do love y'all even when i'm hating on your stupidity
🤟
it was prompted by some incidents, notably me having a nasty accident on a bicycle due to my poor, intoxicated judgement, and then getting into a group voice chat with some fellow nostriches in which i was much too forthcoming
anyhow, as well as all that, i was resuming my work doing dev grant projects for "crypto" projects, in this case, an aggregator for arweave that will be integrating with a video sharing site and hosted on the AO subnet, the so-called "permaweb"
being sober is going to be critical to me managing my work better - the previous project probably would have been done better if i'd been more sober, well, i'm going to be sober as a monk from now on, and in this time, i am only clocking 80 hours a month on this work, and then the rest of my time is free to work on my own things
...Of which one thing is going to be a total re-do of my previous relay work that possibly by the end of this month will be ready to drop into place with previous code to work with ICP (lots of examples of Go based relays to pick out the best one architecture-wise so i don't run into a resource bug issue like i have building from fiatjaf's khatru)
so, now, to finish these envelope codecs... i've done the bech32 encoder now as bytes-only (no strings) and i've done nip-42 auth envelopes, working on the count envelope and i wanted to make sure i had the bech32 encodings from nip-19 ginned up to be able to be used with a freelist pool - but the bech32 entities are not so important to the relay, but i wanted to use bech32 encoding for a standard form of subscription ID anyhow, so i made it nice
one of the things that is starting to become very clear to me is that the drinking was motivated by a sense of futility about trying to achieve anything in a world where darkness has almost completely eclipsed the light
this was leading to immune problems, kidney problems, liver problems, mental problems, accidents, and antisocial behaviour and while i have learned to behave better, and probably metabolise it way faster than most people, it just was a trap, and a thing that lets me get caught up in things i should avoid, and spending money that i don't want to spend, because i want to save it so i can have my hermitage, since at this point i'm most likely going to die alone
well, maybe being sober will mean i don't die alone, but i can't unsee the darkness around me, shadows even in some of the brightest places, only way to really be happy when this is the situation, is to do my best to protect myself and bring light where i can
you can all still GFY but i do love y'all even when i'm hating on your stupidity
🤟