deadsuperhero on Nostr: The thing that’s frustrating about personal insecurity is that you can doubt ...
The thing that’s frustrating about personal insecurity is that you can doubt yourself, even when there’s tangible evidence to the contrary. I personally hold on deeply to the idea that I’m stupid, may have a steep learning disability, and have been masking all this time.
What makes no sense, though, is that I literally spent two hours the other day talking to a guy in detail about peer-to-peer system architecture. I can program games with elaborate, bespoke systems. I’ve written over 100 technical articles, and led engineering teams through detailed implementations. I write poetry, make art, compose music, make people laugh, and will stay up all night talking to someone in need.
I know I should just “get over it”, but insecurity is weird in that it’s not rational. I can point this out to myself, but it doesn’t change how I feel.
What makes no sense, though, is that I literally spent two hours the other day talking to a guy in detail about peer-to-peer system architecture. I can program games with elaborate, bespoke systems. I’ve written over 100 technical articles, and led engineering teams through detailed implementations. I write poetry, make art, compose music, make people laugh, and will stay up all night talking to someone in need.
I know I should just “get over it”, but insecurity is weird in that it’s not rational. I can point this out to myself, but it doesn’t change how I feel.