mtnevar on Nostr: Feeling pretty shitty today… Frustrated and unsupported. Worried that I’m not ...
Feeling pretty shitty today…
Frustrated and unsupported. Worried that I’m not providing enough or doing enough. I can’t understand women, their love seems to always be conditional. The people I love I feel I do so unconditionally, but I don’t always feel that reciprocation…
I’m probably overthinking, as seems to be my mental baseline. Or an insecurity that stems from adolescence? My fear of someone I love falling out of love with me…
Why is that? My innate desire to seek validation & constantly please everyone… or risk losing their admiration.
No one ever left me though…
Maybe that’s it, because I have never been left… I fear being left?!
I fear that which I see represented so frequently in life…
spouses being unfaithful, people abandoning each other, growing resentment…
For some reason expecting that inevitably it will also happen to me?!
Is it too much for a man to be loved simply for being himself? Or must he always be loved for what he does? What he provides?
To my wife and girls: I Iove you unconditionally, nothing you could ever do will change that. For i love the consciousness that is you. No matter the decisions you may make the reality you may create.
We are all just players in this game… each of us trying to achieve the highest score. And I can love watching someone play even if I may have done the level differently.
Frustrated and unsupported. Worried that I’m not providing enough or doing enough. I can’t understand women, their love seems to always be conditional. The people I love I feel I do so unconditionally, but I don’t always feel that reciprocation…
I’m probably overthinking, as seems to be my mental baseline. Or an insecurity that stems from adolescence? My fear of someone I love falling out of love with me…
Why is that? My innate desire to seek validation & constantly please everyone… or risk losing their admiration.
No one ever left me though…
Maybe that’s it, because I have never been left… I fear being left?!
I fear that which I see represented so frequently in life…
spouses being unfaithful, people abandoning each other, growing resentment…
For some reason expecting that inevitably it will also happen to me?!
Is it too much for a man to be loved simply for being himself? Or must he always be loved for what he does? What he provides?
To my wife and girls: I Iove you unconditionally, nothing you could ever do will change that. For i love the consciousness that is you. No matter the decisions you may make the reality you may create.
We are all just players in this game… each of us trying to achieve the highest score. And I can love watching someone play even if I may have done the level differently.