limitlesslaurel on Nostr: almost a year ago, i was approached by a group of MDs and practitioners looking for ...

almost a year ago, i was approached by a group of MDs and practitioners looking for an expert on light, or rather light's effect on health. i was so nervous to talk about anything quantum after leaving the labs where it devastated me to learn exactly what our new technology would be used for... I said yes anyway and wrote one chapter with a tiny bit about my wild childhood as the basis for "my story".
now there's less than a month until it's published to the world.
everyone keeps asking me how i feel about it...
proud, i guess?

i'm not exactly sure. there's still some guilt on my heart for knowing what i helped create to get to the point of being sought out. i know i made the right decision to leave the labs and higher education, but still, i have this deep feeling of wanting to do more. do more not for the accolades or acknowledgment, but do more for the sake of shedding light on the deeply corrupt systems in research and higher education- so less bright-eyed curious kids fall prey to it and live their lives on the treadmill of modern slavery.

i'm not sure how I'll do it... but I keep my heart open to the possibilities and the calls from above.
i pray god leads us in the right direction, and the humans meant to shine that light can hear the call.
until then... i guess I'll just keep on posting #healthstr on #nostr