Desire-kun on Nostr: yeah, at least i got this baller music that i'm listening to. i'm gonna keep doing ...

yeah, at least i got this baller music that i'm listening to.

i'm gonna keep doing what i've been doing -- spending my time here -- until i feel that i should do something else.

i'm following my feelings because i've tried so hard to go against them over the years and all it did was drive me mad. following them gives me a sense of progress and makes me feel okay.

my feelings have directed me to not work, to not game, but to spend lots of time on this completely hateful side of Fedi (varis, poast, nicecrew) and think about my dedication to progress, while i watch the world slowly advance. maybe i'm trying to become immune to the hate. maybe i'm learning to dissuade hateful arguments. maybe both. maybe something else. i don't know.

all i know is that i'm stuck to this life for my sanity's sake.