foolish olivia :olivia_flag: on Nostr: i think the most fucked up thing about thinking this way is i genuinely feel like i ...
i think the most fucked up thing about thinking this way is i genuinely feel like i am doing something noble by leaving my friends alone. kinda fucked up how much i hate myself to think i am being a good human being for abandoning my friends. i am so fucked up. it's true that it is just a form of psychological self harm. how the FUCK am i supposed to fix this shit? i have no idea. i am so tired of torturing myself
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