🍁🥞メイプル🧇🐯 on Nostr: My oldest friend, who I stayed in contact with through everything from high school ...

My oldest friend, who I stayed in contact with through everything from high school until now... He is half Lebanese on his dad's side.

This guy, and I, struggled with PTSD and church trauma together.

We struggled to find ourselves, together, even when we were far apart.

HOW COULD I LOOK MY FRIEND WHO WENT THROUGH HELL WITH ME IN THE EYES IF I VOTED FOR MY INTERESTS AS A TRANS PERSON OVER THE LIVES OF HIS FAMILY???

HOW!!??

I HAVE HAD A FUCKING PIT IN MY STOMACH AND BEEN CRYING FOR MY BROTHER WHO LIVED IN HELL WITH ME.

I MET HIS DAD WHEN HE CAME FOR A VISIT FROM BEIRUT.

IS HE OKAY?

IS MY FRIEND EVER GOING TO RECOVER IF HIS DAD DIES??!

WHAT ABOUT HIS GRANDPARENTS?!

HIS AUNTS AND UNCLES???

HIS COUSINS??!!

HOW HOW COULD I ABANDON MY HUMANITY TO SAVE MYSELF AND STILL HAVE THE HONOR TO LOOK AT MY OLDEST FRIEND OR SHOW MYSELF BEFORE HIM???!!

INSHALLAH THIS WILL BE OVER FAST BEFORE MY FRIEND LOSES EVERYTHING. 🙏

I haven't heard from my friend in a few weeks. I am afraid of the worst. Will his son ever meet his grandfather?

I can't do anything to stop it. But the bare minimum I can do is not contribute to it.