Orca on Nostr: Remembering times when I was happy. I do admit all my mistakes. I was successful from ...

Remembering times when I was happy. I do admit all my mistakes. I was successful from society's point of view. But being too long in the environment I was before was against my heart or inner true self. I was earning money neglecting true relationship with woman I was together. It was my fault. As a result I lost everything. I don't blame anyone. It was my responsibility. Family is more important than everything. I do regret I don't have kids. Being poor changes/affects your mindset. I'm struggling heaps. I know I'm different as I was born and raised in ex-USSR. I am struggling and praying for miracle. I don't have a clue who reads that. I'm just writing in my imperfect English.
I am trying to find a way to earn 500 Euro this month... I'm working in forest cutting trees... They pay me 2.5 EUR an hour. It all goes to covering my simple living expenses and there's no job every day. It's a miserable feeling I'm facing.