Orca on Nostr: 2nd day of 21. It was a good day. I've accomplished tasks I had for today. It's too ...
2nd day of 21.
It was a good day. I've accomplished tasks I had for today. It's too late at night here and I won't write much now. I'm doing what I can within my current circle of influence. Mostly focusing on living in the present moment. Not thinking about the past. Not worrying about the future. I'm trying. As memories pop up as well as worries about the future. I'm not making long term plans now. The 21 day challenge is what I want to accomplish now. Today there was a moment when I was smiling for the first time in a long time. I can't explain why. I don't know the reason I smiled.
Nothing extra special happened. I just noticed myself smiling. I was alone like it is lately. Still trying to figure out how to earn money at least to cover my simple living expenses. I have to leave the flat (it's one little room, kitchen and bathroom (WC and shower). I can't afford to pay rent. It's 250€ a month. I will have to find a cheaper place to live for max 150€ a month. If I will be lucky I will find. As it's a little countryside town. I'm not good at writing now as I am tired and need to get sleep. In future I would like to write more about my past life.
I have a good education, had a good career (from society's point of view not mine). I was a criminal defence lawyer for almost 2 decades defending in courts various criminals (it long story). Until I get enemies among them and local corrupted politicians. I survived an attack in 2018. They tried to kill me. I know too much about them
It was a good day. I've accomplished tasks I had for today. It's too late at night here and I won't write much now. I'm doing what I can within my current circle of influence. Mostly focusing on living in the present moment. Not thinking about the past. Not worrying about the future. I'm trying. As memories pop up as well as worries about the future. I'm not making long term plans now. The 21 day challenge is what I want to accomplish now. Today there was a moment when I was smiling for the first time in a long time. I can't explain why. I don't know the reason I smiled.
Nothing extra special happened. I just noticed myself smiling. I was alone like it is lately. Still trying to figure out how to earn money at least to cover my simple living expenses. I have to leave the flat (it's one little room, kitchen and bathroom (WC and shower). I can't afford to pay rent. It's 250€ a month. I will have to find a cheaper place to live for max 150€ a month. If I will be lucky I will find. As it's a little countryside town. I'm not good at writing now as I am tired and need to get sleep. In future I would like to write more about my past life.
I have a good education, had a good career (from society's point of view not mine). I was a criminal defence lawyer for almost 2 decades defending in courts various criminals (it long story). Until I get enemies among them and local corrupted politicians. I survived an attack in 2018. They tried to kill me. I know too much about them